I haven't talked much about my panic attacks in a while mostly because I haven't been having them as often. Today though I was hit hard. I know for those who don't experience them, this will all seem very silly. Trust me. If I could snap my fingers and make them go away, I would.
I had to wake up early this morning after not sleeping well last night. My car has been acting up and we had to get it to the mechanic's before hubby went to work. (He's on split shifts again this week and goes in later and comes home later.) I've been doing a lot better with handling things like this. They don't throw me for loops like they used to. But for some reason this morning it got the old panic going.
We stopped at Walmart on the way home and the panic got worse. I had to leave the store and go wait out in hubby's car. When we got home I figured maybe I just needed to catch up on the sleep I'd lost so I went to bed and fell asleep watching TV.
When I woke up later it was still there. I felt almost immobilized. I took the dog out for a short walk and got panicky being outside. I came in searching my mind frantically trying to figure out how to get past it. Not finding anything, I grabbed a blanket, turned on the TV in the living room, got comfy and fell asleep again.
I'm just going to do what I can to get beyond this episode. I know it won't last forever. It never does. *Snapping my fingers* Nope.. still doesn't work.
I write this in case anyone else is going through this they won't feel so alone.