When agoraphobia first hit me hard back in the early 90's I stayed inside for almost six months. I've written about that before. I've written recently that I'm more or less stuck inside again. It won't last. It never does. I deal with it when it happens.
One thing I did back in the early 90's is something that I've just decided to start up again. Put on shoes every day. You see I've just been wearing slippers the last few weeks. Why bother with shoes, right? Well.. because with shoes on I program my mind into the possibility of going out. Slippers are the same as giving up.
As much as I seem to give up, I don't like being a quitter. Some things are ok to quit. Take some phenocal and quit gaining weight. Quit smoking. Those are two I need to quit. But quit striving to get better? Nope.
So.. I took a shower today. Got dressed. And put on my shoes.
Hah! Slippers never stop me from going outside -usually just to pick up the newspaper or maybe to get one of the kids off their bus when they come home from school. Why? Because I got myself a pair of slippers last year -furry-lined and with an outdoor sole. Plus, I have another pair of shoes that are intended to be winter shoes -fur-lined, outdoor sole -but they are like my slippers in that they are the "Backless" things, which is about all I wear in the way of footwear. Summer, it's sandals outside; slippers inside and winter, I alternate between my actual slippers and the slipon furry lined outdoor shoes! And the quitting thing -I'm right there with you on both those issues about quitting. Still haven't gotten down to a zero day but one of these days, hopefully, I'll do that!
Glad to hear you are fighting it! :-)
Every step counts! As long as you make progress, no matter how big or small, it is progress. I can see how the slippers would program your mind to stay indoors. I'll have to remember that when I'm feeling like I don't want to go out.
You are strong, and you know the steps to take... I believe in you and am praying for you.
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