This past weekend was a long one for me. I was filled with mixed emotions .. my mood swings were all over the place. My anxiety level was high. I'm not sure why I was like this. I was taking my meds, the same ones I've been taking. Maybe it's time for tweaking them or something.
I worry about so many things. So much so that I get stuck and can't do anything. Then I worry because I'm not doing anything. Then I worry about worrying. Then I start kicking myself for being so weak and ineffective. Weird, huh? Welcome to my world.
There's nothing I want to do anyway. I didn't want to play WoW or play at Pogo for a game or two of something, anything. I didn't want to watch TV or make phone calls. I didn't even want to see what an unlocked phone is.
I thought about going to the grocery store with Mr. Skittles, but I didn't. I thought about taking Hannah to the fenced in area at a school we'd found the weekend before this one, but didn't.
What a whiner I am. I should thank God for the good things I have going for me. I should (and DO) thank God for Mr. Skittles. I should (and DO) thank God for my family and friends. I have a roof over my head, food in the pantry. I have relatively good health.
But hey.. *sing along* It's my bloggy and I'll whine if I want to..