I have all these thoughts rambling around in my head. Maybe if I put them down I can make some sense of them.
About a week ago I got hit hard with baby fever.. as in a puppy or a kitten. Something I could hold in my arms and cuddle with. Sure, we have Hannah, but she's a cow and doesn't settle down enough to *cuddle*. (We were told Labs calm down after a year. She's almost 4. :P)
Last Saturday we went to a pet store just to look. Uh huh.. sure! I fell in love with a teeny tiny Teddy Bear type puppy and we bought him. The next day we took him back.
See, I still have some panic/agoraphobic issues. We can just put Hannah on a tie out. For the puppy though I'd have to take him out many times a day while he's being potty trained. I didn't think I could do that. I kind of knew I couldn't do that. Not consistently. I was heartbroken about returning him and frustrated with myself for not being a *normal* person.
I still have baby fever. We decided against a really small dog and have moved up to medium sized. We've also decided against a baby for the reason I mentioned above. Maybe a young to adult dog. I've scoured classified ads, shelters, Humane Societies and Craigslist every day this week. I only found one dog that whole time and by the time I called it already had a new home.
This might be because I'm asking for too much. I've redefined my search criteria. I want a cute dog with lots of personality. I prefer spayed female. It has to be a snuggler without being needy. Potty trained and crate trained. Medium to low activity and medium to low maintenance. Walk well on a leash. Gets along with Hannah.
Hannah. That's the other thing that's occupied a lot of my thoughts. She's very used to being the only dog. She knows all the names of her toys and will bring them to us when asked. She knows what time of night she gets her treat. She loves(!) chasing a laser light. She knows different words we say to her and her favorite thing is to go bye-bye.
So many questions! How would bringing a new dog into the mix affect her? (She got slightly jealous of the puppy we had for a day and night.) Would she share her toys? How would we make a new dog feel comfortable in its new home and still give her the attention she needs? It's so confusing.
I suppose I need to mentioned the "one pet rule" in our mobile home community. Lots of people have cats and a dog. That gets overlooked by management. Quite a few people have more than one dog. I'm not sure how strongly that is enforced, but that's why we want a smaller dog. Harder to spot. ;)
I guess I'll keep looking. There's a dog out there somewhere for us. Maybe.