I hope something sells soon though so we don't have to pull from savings again. It's nice to have it to fall back on, but we've used up half of it already since Spring trying to keep our heads afloat. Obviously it hasn't worked.
I've mentioned before that the biggest cut we can make in spending is to quit smoking. I tried Chantix which made me
Some people suck on lollipops (or other unmentionable things), some eat celery or carrot sticks to get past the angst of fingers normally busy holding a smoke.. now empty. I have decided to color. I bought a coloring book and a gigantic box of crayons. I sit out at the dining room table and invent new color schemes for the characters of The Incredibles, Nemo, Cars and Monsters Inc. Part of the time I just sniff the crayons. *smile*
Oh sure there are still some big trigger times for me. Those are the times I've given in so far. I have washed and put away all the ashtrays though. If we want to smoke we have to go outside. (Mr. Skittles is trying to quit also.) I don't know why I keep saying "trying" to quit. I should be saying something like "quitting in slow motion."
Slow motion. That seems fitting because I decided something this morning. I am not going to beat myself over the head for not quitting completely yet. I didn't set a quit date. I didn't work or psyche myself up for it. Yeah, some people quit cold turkey or maybe are just stronger willed than me, but I'll admit I'm a wuss. I need slow measured steps. Any start is better than no start. At least in my eyes.
Being at my desk and computer is maybe the hardest trigger to face. If you need me..? I'll be out in the dining room. Coloring or sniffing crayons.