After sorting through options and making some big and sometimes painful decisions it looks like we will be keeping internet. I'm not 100% sure yet whether it will be cable, dialup or free wifi hot spots. It sorta kinda looks like, at least for now, that it will be cable.
We had to compromise on giving up other things to do this. But even one of my children saw that the internet is my biggest connection to the outside world at this point in my life. Sure things might get worse, and if that happens we will have to rethink this decision.
We've dramatically cut down some bills/services, discontinued others. Decided what we can sell to generate more immediate "income." We're going to make a more concerted effort to quit smoking again. That alone will cover my car's monthly payment.
I need to say now that every comment I read from my last post brought tears to my eyes. The concern and love I felt from each one touched me deeply. I guess I was expecting I could disappear quietly and no one would notice or care. Thank you for proving me wrong. ♥