Suffice it to say that at the end of it I was pissed and threw a couple things to relieve tension. I throw things sometimes. (If I don't then I will turn the anger/whatever inward and do self-harm crap.) One thing was my camera because it was close to me. It was still in it's padded case so it's probably safe. I haven't checked yet. If it's broken I guess I'll have to forfeit my chance of being a Naples photographer. That's all Greek to me anyway. *snicker*
Back to what happened and what DIDN'T happen. To avoid further damage of household goods, I went for a drive. My main intention was to go get a pack of cigarettes. I passed stores and gas stations yet I didn't stop. My desire to continue being smoke-free was stronger than my desire to have one.
That's why I shared the story of last night. The last time I was really stressed I smoked. This time I didn't.
Here's a quiz I took. I like the last line. *whistle*
You Need Community
You are a very social person. You are happiest when you're around other people. You need many people in your life. Friends and family make life worth living for you.
You have many relationships in your life, and you are constantly seeking new people out. You need to feel like you're part of a group or a tribe. You don't like to feel like you're going it alone.