I've been sitting here shaking and crying this morning because I had planned to drive back to the city where I used to live and where my doctor still is.
All I needed to do was to go to his office, grab a sheet of paper authorizing fasting blood work, then go have it done. I didn't need to have a colon cleanse or anything. Just blood work. Mr. Skittles even took the day off to drive me there.
But I can't do it. I can't leave the house today.
I was shaking from fear.. and crying because I can't do the most simple things in life. Like walk out my front door. I really hate being me sometimes.