When I get deep into my depression there aren't too many people who understand or are willing to talk about it with me. I've been in the spot for about a week now and find it's easier to act ok and just talk about things like diet pills or normal things. In fact it's easier to just ask about the other person and leave how I'm doing out of it.
Acting ok eventually catches up with me. I know this yet I continue doing it over the years when I know I'm feeling very much not ok. Yesterday I just broke out in tears and spent most of the day crying without knowing why. A release perhaps.
I'm just so.. tired and feel like I could sleep all day. A few days I've done just that. Crawled back into bed, pulled the covers up and slept. I stay in my nightgown. It's hard to do anything.. cook, clean, etc. My exercise bike sits unused most days. Tv holds no interest.. except for American Idol. I have no desire to play video games.
I know I'll pull out of this like I have in the past. Until then? I think I'll just go back to bed.