Friday, June 05, 2009

One Step Forward

I promised myself to get eating habits under control and glucose levels down. I promised myself to make more effort to quit smoking. With these new promises to myself it seems I've been taking one step forward and two steps back.

I'm doing a lot better with my eating but already the monitoring of my glucose has fallen off a lot. I've already skipped breakfast and lunch a few days. I need those to help me manage my dinner and snacking. I don't know which would work better.. being more vigilant or taking weight loss pills. Something has to change or this is never going to work. And I will never accomplish what so desperately needs accomplishing.

Smoking. Well.. hmm. That fell away a lot quicker. I could say it's harder because nicotine is addictive. But anyone who has a chronic overeating problem will tell you food is also addictive. In its own way. I still try to smoke where I usually don't. I'm once again smoking in places I usually do and more than where I don't.

The one consolation I can make in the back of my head is that I have a doctor appointment Monday where he will advise me and help me get started on both issues. Officially. I had to put this on the back burner until I got over my pneumonia. I know I will be getting a prescription for Chantix to help with the withdrawal from nicotine. I know Jeni has had some success with it. When she remembers to take it. (Nudge Nudge.)

So.. one step forward and two steps back? Maybe not giving up altogether is the important thing.

7 comments:

Grace said...

Sometimes the step forward and then step back is just for you to get your RUNNING Shoes on... like waiting at the starting gate...

I'm sure you have either talked or will talk to doc about the side affects of any nicotine withdrawal RX and mental health issues. We want to make sure that you get on the right stuff that won't complicate other parts of your life.

When I wrote today's blog post you were one of the persons I was thinking about...

Grace said...

what meme where? oh... shoot... I'm at work... so ummm nevermind for now... lol

Misty Dawn said...

Not giving up is VERY important. Deciding that you WANT to change things and will work at it is a giant leap... so even though you've had a few steps back, you're still ahead ;-)

Jeni said...

Just be sure to eat before you take any of the chantix! First things first there or you will toss your cookies and anything else left behind too within a half hour of ingesting that pill!
I have been bad or lax -your choice of descriptive words there -this week and not done the chantix regularly. Today though, I made sure to have a big bowl of cereal and then promptly forgot to take the damned first pill today for almost two hours after having eaten. I'm also very seriously considering going to a hypnotist for the smoking cessation thing to use in conjunction with the chantix! Anything to try to take my mind -and body cravings -off this very expensive substance and horrible habit! Here's to you, here's to me and may be both, by hook or by crook, actually succeed!
Peace.

Asara Dragoness said...

If it helps, the Whistler has quit by using Chantix, and he was a serious lifer on cigarettes. Like from age 8. As he has told me, over and over and over again, if he can quit, anyone can. Though he still drives me up the walls about how much he still wants to smoke, even though he doesn't have the cravings any more. There have been ads for a stop-smoking hypnotist thing around here as well, if he goes to it I'll let you know how that goes.

Asara Dragoness said...

p.s. He complained of absolutely nutty and VERY vivid dreams while he was on it. Fair warning. :D

silverneurotic said...

I really wish I had some words of advice to give you, but I don't. I just really hope that you are able to get ahold of things and are able to get healthy.