I promised myself to get eating habits under control and glucose levels down. I promised myself to make more effort to quit smoking. With these new promises to myself it seems I've been taking one step forward and two steps back.
I'm doing a lot better with my eating but already the monitoring of my glucose has fallen off a lot. I've already skipped breakfast and lunch a few days. I need those to help me manage my dinner and snacking. I don't know which would work better.. being more vigilant or taking weight loss pills. Something has to change or this is never going to work. And I will never accomplish what so desperately needs accomplishing.
Smoking. Well.. hmm. That fell away a lot quicker. I could say it's harder because nicotine is addictive. But anyone who has a chronic overeating problem will tell you food is also addictive. In its own way. I still try to smoke where I usually don't. I'm once again smoking in places I usually do and more than where I don't.
The one consolation I can make in the back of my head is that I have a doctor appointment Monday where he will advise me and help me get started on both issues. Officially. I had to put this on the back burner until I got over my pneumonia. I know I will be getting a prescription for Chantix to help with the withdrawal from nicotine. I know Jeni has had some success with it. When she remembers to take it. (Nudge Nudge.)
So.. one step forward and two steps back? Maybe not giving up altogether is the important thing.